Away

Seems like im never around for the country's defining moments.. first i was away for the first time i got the opportunity to vote... then now ill be away during National Day.. some more national day that day got BBQ some more.. sianzzz....

looks like im never here for anyone's defining moment.. bleah..

Fly Away

Just an update on my ever changing schedule... sometimes i dont even know when im flying..

1 August - 4 August ~~> Phuket

8 August - 11 August ~~> Chiang Mai

It's been 7 years since ive gone to Chiang Mai.. gosh.. so long ago... and it's been like 2 months since i returned from Phuket..

Birthday

Birthday.. what's in a birthday?

It's an anniversary of one's birth. Sometimes, to console myself when i feel alone, I say it's jus another day of the year.

I remember once when my grandma (my mum's mum) was alive and my mum was telling her we should celebrate her birthday... and my hainanese was good enough to listen in to that conversation.

My grandma told my mum that in a year, there's only one of every day.. one 31 July, one 3 August.. so now day is especially special from the rest. So we should live everyday like it is special.

I cant remember how old i was then but i rem my grandma passed away when i was 11.

Till this day, i remember this advice..

my colleagues were nice enough to buy me a cake on Tuesday before i left..



I got this cardholder from Edna. You really shouldnt have.



This cup from Kaitlynn..i promptly got my intern to make me some milo



And these cufflinks from Aud.



And an angpao from my mummy on my table when i got home on midnight Friday

Tripping

Before I could get to blog abt my trip to Japan, I just found out that Im leaving for Phuket and Chiang Mai on Monday night..

*strange*

Just when i typed that, my colleague just smsed me (it's 2am now) to say that the trip is postponed... good also la... damn tired leh.. fly here fly there..

Nippon

It seems like for every three times i apply for leave, i have to cancel it twice.. as i mentioned i applied for leave for my gala bday celebrations..but alas, i might have to go to Tokyo next week.. then have to cancel my leave..

oh well.. maybe better also la..

Leave

I just applied for leave for my birthday gala celebration. actually not gala la but i've been quite tired recently. Zonked out.

So i asked for a leave form cos there was a revision and under "Type of Leaves", there was :

1. Annual Leave
2. Compassionate Leave (Attach copy of evidence)
3. Medical Leave (Attach medical certificate)
4. Marriage Leave (Attach copy of marriage certificate)
5. Maternity Leave
6. Others.

On a cursory glance, i thought.. hmm.. not very different, now just need my boss to sign, supervisor no need to sign. Then i looked closer...

"2. Compassionate Leave (Attach copy of evidence)"

What the... compassionate leave need copy of evidence???!@?!? What evidence? Death certificate? a receipt of the peh kim you give? or the empty cup of mineral water you drink at the wake??

Sometimes, ple are so brainless.

I looked further and i realised you dont have to attach anything for maternity leave.. you mean i dont have to attach a copy of my hotel bill there to show the conception date? or maybe no need to attach any evidence cos the HR side just had to check when was the last time you took leave and count forwards...

I feel nasty today.

Yawnder

Since i've been quite lobo of late, i go home at 6pm punctually. i was home by 6:50pm last night and was asleep by 10:30pm. Unfortunately, i didnt get much sleep as I was up by 4am and started to check my mails. I found that my boss sent more 10 over mails.. so after replying them all, i decided to go to work.

I found that at 4:30am my mum's up already, making breakfast.. yeah she has weird hours too. We chatted quite a bit since i slept early the night before. so it was nice.

And so, im here at work now.. 6:50am.. gosh, that's 12 hrs since i reached home, im at work. I'll probably go home early again today.

Since there has been a lack of pics recently, i thought i'd take a pic of the 3 calendats on my desk. Early this year, i put an appeal on my MSN nick to ask for calendars. Some friends have replied and more came from clients.. so i now have 3 on my desk, one showing the current month, one showing the previous month and one showing the next month. I try to act busy.

Paranoia

my friend is missing a friend. her beau, whom she has had an up and down r/s with, hasnt replied to her smses/calls since his mobilisation exercise on Sat. (it's Sunday today). Apparently they had a little quarrel on Friday. so she doesnt know if something happened to him or he's jus avoiding her..

And then she says the watch which he gave her stopped.

Im quite sure he's fine.. the army does strange things to you when they mob you.

my friend is so sweet. a love so pure and so frenzied.. one which seeks the other so fervently and pins in its absence.

Im sure he'll be back in ur arms soon.

Worthless Conversations

I was supposed to play mahjong today with the Dream Team.. but all of the sudden yokie had something on.. so we didnt.. keeve msged me in the noon..

Keeve
Damn woman

Cornball
Yeah.. now im bored

Keeve
I fell asleep w/o showering yesterday, woke up @ 4 am

Cornball
Y?

Keeve
No idea, just sat in the chair and dozed off

Cornball
You dozed off on e chair?

Keeve
Then fell asleep again @ 9 am, finally woke up @ 1+

Cornball
amazing

Keeve
Not really, about right . . . 2am doze off, 4am woke up to shower, then slept again @ 9am

Average hours of sleep, just damn screwed up

Cornball
u are talking as if i care

i dun

i dun really care

Keeve
I guess you don't care to have some pizza I just ordered

Cornball
woo

maybe i do

Keeve
Get lost, it's mine

Cornball
no way in hell im gg to walk in the rain for ur crummy pizza

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In another conversation, shitfong said he might have a colleague who's going to Okinawa..then he said he saw an article which says there might be a typhoon there..

Shitfong

btw i tink okinawa got some typhoon izit?

Cornball

i duno man

Shitfong

do they call it typhoon or hurricane in japan?

Cornball

hmmmm

typhoon

cos typhoon in chinese is tai feng

there's no chinese word for hurricane

hahahahahaha

Shitfong

wahahhaa



I surprise myself at times on how smart i am.

So in the end, i didnt leave my house at all during the weekend... *yawn* so fruitless.

If Love is Blind

If Love is Blind

People say that youre no good for me
People say it constantly
I hear it said so much I repeat it in my sleep

Maybe I am just a fool for you
Maybe youre no angel too
But all that talk is cheap
When Im alone with you

If love is blind
Ill find my way with you
Cause I cant see myself
Not in love with you
If love is blind
Ill find my way with you

All the world is crazy anyway
Whats it matter what they say
If Im the one thats wrong
Then let in be my mistake

If love is blind
Ill find my way with you
Cause I cant see myself
Im not in love with you
If love is blind
Ill find my way with you

You wouldnt be with me tonight if I didnt feel I was right
What will it matter anyhow a hundred years from now

If love is blind
Ill find my way with you
Cause I cant see myself
Im not in love with you
If love is blind
Ill find my way with you
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Not the best songs to be THE song, but it was THE song.
Brings back many memories.

Sleepless in Simei

Life aint a bed of roses is something we hear often but why do people want to lie on thorns?

I slept at 3am packing on Sunday night with the full expectation of sleeping my ass off on the plane to Okin. And then i wasnt going. So i was home by 8pm on Monday night and asleep by 10pm..

It's 3am now. Sigh.. i only managed to sleep at 5hours and then now cannot sleep liaoz..so im surfing the internet now, replying emails and doing some work.

What for work so hard ...

No Go

I didnt go Okinawa in the end.. cos the project was cancelled. Im very happy actually.. cos i can relak in Singapore this way.

Okinawa and Back

My trip to Okinawa is postponed till next week cos the client aint free to meet me... I'm actually very happy cos that means i now have time to wrap up my Phuket report before flying there.

YAY!

Roller Coaster

I hate roller coasters.

Because i have motion sickness. It's the sole reason why i hate to take planes. They give me a headache. And dont we all hate headaches.

I've always likened being in a relationship to being in a roller coaster.. When you're single, your emotions are like a flat line.. with minimal peaks (after a good meal mostly) and troughs (when you're hungry). in the long run, emotions are rather flat.

But when you're in a relationship, the peaks and troughs are more pronounced. It's like a sinusoidal curve. A sine curve is shown here:



Highs and lows, highs and lows... highs are much higher than before and lows are lower than ever. Of cos we always try to minimise the lows and amplify the highs. Sometimes we succeed, other times not.

The question that often remain, is this what we want? Do we want such ploraised emotions? Do we really need roller coasters every few weeks/months/years? Should our own happiness be the product of our own actions and not some irresponsible 'other half'?

Luggages and Baggages

I've jus finished packing.. phew... it's never easy to pack.. though some people may not believe me.. Yes, i have my standard list of items and my toiletries are always ready to go... but it really differs from destination to destination. From temperate Korea to sunny maldives, I have to decide between which suit to wear and which polo tee etc... and the best thing is my boss told me to bring both resort wear and formal suit cos though the hotel im going in Okinawa is a resort, the japs are a formal lot... bleah...



and so these are my baggage for the next five days... it's amazing really.. my flight tmr is at 11pm Monday night. From Changi to Narita (7 hrs), from Narita to their domestic airport (2 hr journey to some waiting time of 2 hrs), to a 3 hr flight to Okinawa.. I'd prob reach there at 3pm... a total of approx 16 hrs... *sweat*

And I'd be lugging my luggage. My baggage for 5 days. My life all packed in 2 bags. My burden as i go about life. And my back would ache from the burden. The burden which i carry as i trudge through the flights of life.

We all carry burdens... I have no idea if the plural of "burden" has an "s" but it sure feels like a big fat monumental ass. People try their darnest to remove this burden, through reading self-help books, through activities, through religiosity (note i didnt say religiosity, because religiosity doesnt equate to having a religion). We carry emotional baggage from past emotional encounters. these sometimes enrich us and sometimes make us a better lot. Other times, it weighs us down.

So what is your emotional baggage doing for you today?

The Dream Team played mahjong today. It's thus called cos it's like a dream come through when we 4 manage to get permissions from our individual stations of life to get together for an entire afternoon/evening/night for a time for mahjonging/catching up/gossipping/sharing/eating/gossipping. It always fun. Even though i lose money at times. but what the heck.. money spent on mahjong would otherwise be spent in restaurants and movie theatres anyway.

So it was fun.

We sent yokie home at Bt Batok this time cos we felt nice. Bt Batok is damn far away but it was a good ride. After that, i brought keeve and shitfong to my favourite indonesian restaurant in Raffles Place - Pagi Sore. Raffles Place is a dead town on weekends so it was a good time of catching up (more!) and gossipping (even more!) It's rare that we get such an opportunity.

Dinner-less in Simei

It's Saturday.. and after a whole day of mulling around at home, I found myself with no dinner and feeling extremely cranky.

Soccer starts in 2 hrs.. gosh.. i cant wait for it to come..

I've been thinking abt comments on my personality from reading my blog. Yes, it's right. The blog tells everyone what i bought and what i ate and where i stay. But it hardly ever scratches the surface on the personal details in my life nor does it really delves into the inner moods i experience.. for some inexplicable reason, I find it very hard to reveal things abt myself these days.

This entry would really be an antithesis of the preceding paragraph... I sense a Roxette weekend coming up.

It's the month of my birthday. I just got a S$20 voucher from Sakae Sushi and a whole plethora of vouchers from M1... mostly for food.. only one was rather interesting.. i get to talk for free all day on 15 July. so weird.. that day aint even my birthday. sometimes we just dont know why some people behave in some ways eh?